As a new Christian, I wanted to do everything right. I wanted to be perfect. I didn’t have an understanding of the glorious grace and mercy of God. It seemed that I would get one thing right (praying daily) and then eat a big ol’ hunk of cake, when I was on a “fast.” I felt I was letting God down. I fretted over my failings, and I felt I would never do anything to please God.
One evening, I looked at my fingernails, and one had chipped. Every other nail was “perfect”. I was bummed because now I would have to cut the other nails down. As I was removing the polish, I sighed to myself, “I’ll never have ten perfect nails.” Then a thought came to mind,” It is the same with your Christian walk. You’ll never be perfect.”
I continued to file my nails; pondering my thoughts. I know these words were given for my understanding. As a Christian, there will always be areas in my life that will have to be brought to the cross; areas where I had failed. I couldn’t be fake by trying to look perfect; that would be the same as putting on false nails, and pretending that they were my own.
This message may not be a deep revelation for anyone else, but it was for me. It was my own Rhema, my a-ha, and my catharsis. I would never be perfect, and God didn’t expect me to be. I learned that maturing in Christ wasn’t about trying to be perfect, but having a perfect heart that desired to be made into the image of God. It is the knowing the perfect love of God as we stumble, and humbly receive His mercy. It is accepting the mercy of God as we go through the process of changing to His image. It is resting in knowing He loves us, despite our imperfections.
And this is Truly Said.
Sword: The Lord is slow to anger, and filled with unfailing love, forgiving every kind of sin and rebellion. Numbers 14:18 (NLT)
Application: God is very aware that we will sin and the cross is the answer. We are forgiven as we confess our sin, with a Godly sorrow, and determine to not continue in our sin.